I'm sorry you're so depressed. What's so bad about being a 14-year-old girl? Everyone's got to be something...and whether you're a boy or girl, no matter what age you are- everyone has their own cross to bear...... I hope and pray things get better for you. I'm sure you may well have heard these before- but maybe some other Sesame Street songs will encourage you. As Mister Rogers was fond of saying, you make each day special by just your being yourself. Take care and God bless.