My band teacher yelled at me (and my clarinet section) today for messing up on a song (He's always neurotic around this time because it's only one week until our winter concert.....then again, he's neurotic every other week. He's also a perfectionist, which is also a big issue.). I, personally as first chair clarinet, felt so embarrassed and upset especially with the pressure being taken on me. I was crying for the following two periods after that's how upset I was. I mean, I love playing clarinet, just as much as piano and singing, and I'm pretty strong at it.......but that moment today just made me question my true ability and dedication as a clarinetist, and my trust in him. Am I trying too hard to impress someone, or am I not trying hard enough? And my dad found out, too (because he works at my school), and is thinking very hard about pulling me and my sister out of band (If that happens, I still have chorus to fall back on.) but I don't wanna give up playing clarinet. I've come this far and don't wanna give it up now.