Yes, I understand. You're ages with my brother who has to work 3 jobs to pay rent, and he's getting his masters degree. Please finish your writing work and jobs then! They are important! I am glad you liked Under the Mistletoe, it was just an idea I played with. Not great, but good. I hope you publish your story, I'm soing the same here. I also like Heart of Gold too. Don't worry, We're both crazy!